Pain in the Process of Recovery
“And a woman spoke, saying, ‘Tell us of Pain.’ And he said: Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand...
View ArticleCutting Ropes and Sailing Free
I’ve been working my way through a depression over the last few weeks. Maybe “underneath” is a better word… Sometimes the journey to freedom feels easy and the truth is crystal clear. Risks don’t feel...
View ArticleGroomed to Doubt through Spiritual Abuse
“Are you sure?…” As children we have a childlike faith. It just is. Faith that our parents are always right and acting in our best interest. Faith that we can take things at face value and learn to...
View ArticleMother Daughter Relationship Lies
Aware of the Danger It is devastating to realize how little regard parents can have for their own child when that child is you. It is deeply wounding; I was filled with self doubt about why they felt...
View ArticleDepression and Identity Crisis
I was stuck for so long believing that if my family could just see me for who I really am, that I could BE who I really am. This was a lie that kept me down for many years. Because “they” my family...
View ArticleOvercoming Depression ~ Getting Past the Pain
I got a comment the other day from Cassie and it has been haunting me ever since so today I am going to answer one of the questions in her comment. Cassie wrote an in depth and pain filled comment...
View ArticleGoing Forward; Looking Back ~ Emotional Healing Process
In the recovery process of emotional healing and overcoming abuse I created a lot of images in my mind that helped me to look at things in different ways. Sometimes I dreamed of images, and sometimes...
View ArticleThe Beginning of Emotional Recovery
When I accomplished something I was told in so many ways that it didn’t matter, it was no big deal, or the credit was given to someone else. This was a big part of my continuing depressions; that I...
View ArticleKeys to Living in the Present (the password is “the past”)
"I saw the light" by Azelinn I thought that my present could be resolved by talking about what was wrong with the present… but it turned out it was resolved by sorting out what went wrong in the past....
View ArticleMy Mothers Narcissistic Reaction to my Book Idea
Several years ago, I excitedly told my Mother over the phone that I was going to write a book about my process of recovery from chronic depression and dissociative identity disorder. She reacted with...
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